As our former president Dr. APJ Abdul Kalam has rightly said in his book Ignited Minds “dream transforms into thoughts and thoughts result into action”.
My struggle started two years back when I had quit my corporate career. After having progressive grades in 10th, 12th and then engineering, I was selected in campus recruitment with a good starting package for a beginner. As the days passed on I had established my name for myself in the organization with my work and my involvement in cultural activities. But when I realized I had more in me, I could do more than what I am meant to be, I started dreaming about having a lucrative and respectable job profile where not only I am able to live my dreams, my parents dream, but also serve the public.
My dreams started changing into thoughts and finally got a shape where I would be stepping in. First time I Appeared in bank exam for IBPS PO and Clerk in 2013 itself and cleared both of them one after another without any preparation, although with a low score. I was selected as a clerk in Bank of India, but I kept it on hold as I was awaiting another big final result of PO, but it did not go through as I expected and could not make it to the merit list by 0.5 marks. My parents asked me to quit my job and accept the clerical offer and prepare side by side. But my dreams were big enough, I have known my potential always and decided to quit my job and start preparing judiciously giving full impetus and focus primarily on banking preparation especially for Bank PO
“Never settle for anything less than what you are capable of”
I told my parents that I am not able to continue my studies and job simultaneously, and they throughout kept faith and supported me, then I consulted my senior colleagues whether I should step down from this job or should I do both the things simultaneously(preparation and job). They said” Good Decision! You have age, we don’t”
I became optimistic and took this as an opportunity and started preparing for banks exams coming back home. I had not joined any coaching classes by that time, but when I appeared for IBPS PO and IBPS RRB in 2014, I failed miserably and could not clear any of them because of little over confidence from the past. But I learned from the mistakes and started preparing again. At times it becomes difficult for students to prepare with the changing pattern and level of difficulty of the exam, but no one can help it, in the end you have to fight the odds. I without thinking much started again with fresh frame of mind and appeared for other government exams as well in 2015. With the little improved continuous efforts I was able to clear the first stage of IBPS PO and SSC , but hard luck followed me and failed with a big margin in SSC and with a 0.5 marks in IBPS PO Mains. I also appeared for SBI PO but could not clear the prelims itself. It disappointed me for the day when the result was out for the exams, but I used to get up next day and start fresh. I recollected where I had been lacking and found out it to be sheer amount of practice, pinch of smart work and the undivided concentration.
Failure is a part of life; you fall number of times but never give up and stand again. It’s the same way we learned mathematics and cycle when we were young. You were wounded but you never had quit learning. Learning is a process which includes minor daily inputs and huge hard work.
It was 2016 where I had already made a tryst with destiny and as an average learner worked upon my weak areas and made stronger areas strongest. I was curiously waiting for the exam of SBI PO, and the prelims went as expected and cleared with good score, when the mains arrived it was a state of complete disaster, people around me started panicking, for a moment I did. Then I withheld my nerves and told myself to stay calm and look for the questions with higher marks or even lower marks where I can score. GK is supposed to be easy section if you go through bankers adda study material(monthly and SBI PO mains capsule) especially and then came the descriptive paper where I thought to give my best shot even my mains didn’t go as expected, but there was an opportunity that if the cut off goes less then I have the opportunity to capitalize or compensate with my descriptive exam marks. I was not sure but I remained optimistic regarding the results and it turned my way. I started preparing for GD/ PI with career power and they helped me to turn my personality from the minor of things and I could see difference in my personality, attitude, way of talking and knowledge with the training they imparted. I was pretty confident, with a pinch of nervousness on the D-Day. GD went well and when I turned for interview I was so choked up, I wished them good morning instead of good afternoon. But that moment I skipped it from the memory that time and concentrated on rest of the questions and it turned to be good and when the results were out I was not sure about making into the final list. I only knew that I whatever may be the result I will be walking with a confidence boosted up. When I saw my roll number in the list, I could not believe for a moment and my whole family started celebrating like anything. The true moment for me was tears in their eyes. As they say and have very well written
लहरों से डर कर नौका पार नहीं होती,
कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नहीं होती।
नन्हीं चींटी जब दाना लेकर चलती है,
चढ़ती दीवारों पर, सौ बार फिसलती है।
मन का विश्वास रगों में साहस भरता है,
चढ़कर गिरना, गिरकर चढ़ना न अखरता है।
आख़िर उसकी मेहनत बेकार नहीं होती,
कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नहीं होती।
It’s not necessary always to go through tough situations and even if you pass through hold on to your nerves, believe in yourself, be pumped up and confident and always keep on learning and improving yourself day by day(my success mantra) that you will sail through it. I had always been an average person who never thought of quitting despite numerous failures and just came up with a fully fledged plan and always wanted to beat the reason which always defeated me in two years. Defeating the defeat this time and stepping up another step towards my "lakshya " with continuous small amount of efforts and pinch of failures, finally made my way to enter SBI as PO. I would like to quote myself and would like to say to the aspirants
"मंज़िले तोह मिल ही जायगी कही किसी रास्ते से, चलना तोह शुरू करो" ।।
A wholehearted thanks to my Parents who inspired, believed and supported me throughout my struggle and thanks to bankersadda and career power for taking initiatives to provide free concise and terse material and the special thanks to the people who criticized my methods and tried to distract me and gave me reason to fight the odds and prove them wrong and they say “ at first they will ask why you are doing it, later they will ask how you did it”
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